| we had just told everyone. just started thinking of names.....just started getting so excited. the shock had gone away, and it was nothing but pure bliss and amazement. i was so excited b/c this time, WE were pregnant. last time I was pregnant. I don't think I couldn't love another nearly like I love Jackson, but I was so excited about going through it all with the love of my life. And getting to watch him be excited and touch my belly. and it all came crashing down. it hurt physically, but it still hurts my soul. I told myself after I had Jackson, I would never want to do it again. But when I look into the eyes of my husband, and know thats what he wants and what I want too....it breaks my heart. it just wasn't meant to be people tell me. i just don't understand. my heart is broken. my spirit is crushed. |
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| If you all haven't figured it out, I got married!!! Aug 12, 2006. So in love, so very happy.... |
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| HERE LIES CARRIE'S XANGA
Dec 2003 - Jan 3006
hey guys...i'm going private...sorry....i don't have xanga premium anymore, and so i could only have 10 on my protected list....i'm working on making all my entries private....every last one of them...and i'm thinking up a good obituary.....but im off to louisiana.... |
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